I don't know what to do with myself. My dad is showing someone the house to tomorrow while I'm at school . I can't take it, just can't this whole thing is tearing me apart . I'm losing my best friend, I'm losing my house to a fat- not going to go there. And I'm losing my mind, my math teach insults me when I do something wrong I can't do anything right!! the thing that really rips me open now is that I may be losing my best friend (not going to say who) I can't imagine being without this person. Such a wonderful friend, I'm trying to figure out what I did. I'm not sure that's something I'll have to think of later, dear heavenly father what have I done to deserve this kinda of luck!?. I tell my dad it's my fault he's leaving my mom, I shouldn't have been born I'm nothing to everybody. I wish there was a way I could just disappear and never come back make everyone's life easier. I'm basicly living in my own heck. Sorry for the long journal I'm just so shattered and hurt..